distraction?

GLEE!!!

ive been watching glee for the whole weekend! marathon! xtido!! well, tido la kejap. hehe i love this kinda stuff. musical drama. esp comedy one. haha n since then, aku siap ade playlist Glee dlm hp aku. dengar je lagu die sepanjang hari.

well, salah satu episod die cakap pasal DISTRACTION. n trust me, since then, i've been using that word like a million time. episod tu macam kena ngan batang idung aku sendiri la.

DISTRACTION:
1. To cause to turn away from the original focus of attention or interest; divert.
2. To pull in conflicting emotional directions; unsettle.

and this is happen to me. suke carik/menyibuk dengan masalah orang lain sebab nak lupekan/distract dari masalah sendiri.

aku 'create' my own distraction. bukan orang yg buatkn macam cite Glee tu. kalau takde sesape yg ade masalah, aku busy kn diri buat perkara yg xpenting n actually 'lost' doing it. misalnya, arrange wedding aku sendiri, siap buat bajet, pike venue pe sme sedangkan aku ni lambat lagi kawen. orang yg dah nak kawen pun x prepared pape lg.

and aku baru sedar itu yang aku lakukan dari dulu lg. n b'coz of that, i miss a lot of chance of being happy. ye la. bile masalah orang tu dah setel, aku teringat balik masalah aku. pastu aku carik lagi masalah lain. bende tu xkan habis. and maybe that's why aku rase hidup aku complicated, asyik banyak masalah.

kalau la aku terus setelkan masalah aku, mesti aku dah lege cepat. and hidup aku xde la serumit mane. i never talk about this to anyone. ye la. aku sendiri x sedar. everytime aku ade masalah, well, aku ade simptom taknak susahkan orang. maybe sebab aku rasa, everytime aku cerita masalah aku, it tends to be more complicated. it is easier to me to keep to myself n solve it in my own way. evidently, its not working out anyway..

now, since aku dah sedar kesilapan aku dalam menangani masalah peribadi (ceh..), i shud work something out. maybe aku x berapa comfortable nk cerita kat orang. so, the best way (for now) is to avoid distraction, solve them as soon as possible. if things get harder, then i'll talk to someone.

till then~

chow!!

ps: listen to sweet caroline. best number!